Grateful, without hesitation.

Friday was the culmination of a really difficult several days, mostly centered around my health. I found myself feeling really alone, and quite sad. But, I made the decisions that I needed to make to get some of the hugs that I so desperately needed, to laugh about things that don’t always feel funny at the moment, and to lose a little of the heavy, trading it in for light.

I am not someone who generally “vaguebooks”…that is not really my style, but when I am overwhelmed, or really need to process…it helps me to write it down, or at least write down some of the feelings that I am having.

Over the last several years, I have really changed my relationship to my body and to my health. I have worked really hard to be a healthier version of myself, and to take better care of my body. I wish that I had the chance to go back, and tell the teenage and twenty something me….start now. But, I didn’t. So, here I am, an aging woman with no road map, and I don’t know all the obstacles ahead…but, I have to settle in and figure it out. As I look around, I know that I am not alone, and I know that so many people do love and care about me.

I appreciate, deeply, all the ways that people reached out after my post on Friday, offering words of love and encouragement, reminding me that if I needed anything, to say it. One reality of me, and I don’t consider this to be anything more than a part of me…I am not good at asking for help. So, please know…I appreciate deeply the love and concern. It does mean so very much to me. I have always known that I am blessed in the friend department.

What I am ready to share today is this…I am okay. I promise. And, I am going to be okay. I promise, if it comes to something different…I’ll be sure and tell. But, for now…I am okay. Ready to tackle the things that I can, and to acknowledge that there are somethings that I do not have control over.

Thank you, full stop. (And, yes…I unfortunately have a stress fracture in my foot….but, no, I am not going to not run today….)